Radiating My Authentic Purpose

A quote from Marianne Williamason

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

Authenticity is something I have been reflecting and meditating on lately.  What is being authentic?  I think every human on earth wants to feel authentic, real, or genuine.  To mean what you say and say as you do.  Authenticity is the degree in our lives to which we hold true to our own personality, spirit, or character despite the external material pressures and influences.  How can you radiate your authentic purpose?

I am a person that needs time to process.  I believe that Deepak Chopra said, "To make the right choices in life, you have to get in touch with your soul.  To do this you need to experience solitude, which most people are afraid of, because in the silence you hear the truth and know the solutions."  Meditation has become a huge part of my life and daily devotion time.  It has taught me the practice of stopping and enjoying small moments of thought.  It has taken a year to get to a place that I can meditate with my own thoughts and visions without guided help.  I meditated on Marianne's quote and found myself struck by a phrase that completely describes several of my current meditative thoughts.  "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us."

What I found interesting about this quote was the spin on inadequacy and fear.  Instead of the fear being inadequate, the fear of being a powerful light is really thought provoking.  Fear of being the light or the good is something that we all struggle with.  On a daily basis, the average person has 7000 thoughts.  How many of those thoughts become actions, and how many of those actions affect other people.  When I think about those 7000 thoughts a day, how many of those thoughts are stale, shallow, and judgmental?  

Fearing that I am powerful beyond measure is the exact unconscious pressure that has been internally propelling my self doubt for quite some time.  My power or self love as always been built on being my authentic self.  Holding true to my own personality, spirit, and character despite all the external forces that constantly try and extinguish this light.  However, somehow I let my light dim in attempting to light the fire for everyone else.  Why?  I am an intuitive empath.  Intuitive empaths are people who have an unusual capacity for sensing and understanding the feelings of others.  That is me being completely authentic!

I have never understood my ability to read and perceive people until the past year of life.  I discovered with this gift, I take on other people emotions, feelings, and that I feel them all at once.  I can read a persons aura of who they are in a small amount of time.  I get strong gut feelings about things and people before I even have conversations with them.  Sometimes, I have to leave places because I get physically sick feelings from people that I am around.  On the other hand, being able to read people has provided me with opportunities to see all aspects of a problem and meet amazing people who share similar gifts.  Sometimes over analyzing becomes my BIGGEST struggle.  I want to help everyone, but sometimes it consumes me and I have to physically stop and detach from it because it takes over my life and being.  It took a lot of time to process this gift and learn to protect myself.  It feels good to finally have a name to how I have felt my whole life and an understanding of how to help others who feel the same way.  

Manifesting and accepting the gifts that the divine creator gave us is difficult.  There is always a chance that someone out there is struggling as well and instead of supporting my authentic purpose, they will chose to attack it because of their own fear and inability to liberate themselves.  SO WHAT!  I am not inadequate just because someone doesn't agree with me or like me.  I have the power to let go of anything that doesn't serve a positive purpose in my life.  Being myself will spread the light of love to someone else and liberate them from their fears because they will know they are not alone.  I want to be a beacon of light for others.  I do not need permission from anyone to be myself.  I will shine, be fabulous, and not be embarrassed of being who I am.  

So friends, Be powerful, be authentic, be YOU!